It is not every day that your past comes to haunt you. And, it definitely doesn’t come the exact same way. You won’t even realize that it has stepped into your life. The life that was peaceful, ambitious and goal-oriented. It comes wrapped in a beautiful disguise.
A pretty face, natural vibe, intellectual conversations.
It seeps in so smoothly that you have no sense of time and how deeply it has gotten rooted into your life. This past slowly becomes your present. A present which you have already started to imagine a future with.
But, it is all an illusion. This you did not know.
Your heart was too deeply involved. Your mind tried to keep you away from getting yourself into the same mess that happened in the past.
Mind is always ignored.
Heart always has its way.
And when the ceiling of hope breaks, it’s the heart that shatters into million pieces, just like the shards of glass. Your mind, then, cannot do much. It tried to warn you. It tried to show you the signs. You thought this time it would be different.
You acted strong. But, are you really?
This time it was indeed different. Yet it was all the same.
You acted as if you do not care. But you did.
You acted as if you have more important priorities. Yes, you did, but even that changed, didn’t it?
You never thought it would come to this. But it still did.
And your mind warned you. You did not listen.
You voluntarily went and stood at the edge of this deep cliff. You thought when you jump you will sail. You believed and put your trust into it. And when you jumped only then you realized that it was a gateway to death.
It didn’t kill your body though, did it?
It killed your soul, it crushed your heart, and it has been hammering your mind constantly.
You thought it will be different this time. It was indeed different. Yet it was the same old thing.
Not accepting love is taking away someone else’s peace. It is unfair, unjust, for both.
Where did all the efforts go then? What happened to the future that you had painted about your present? Past, present, and future all have come to haunt once again after all these years and you are not ready to go through it all again.
Fin.
brainwork 