“Who is he?”
“Why is he following me?”
“Why can’t I connect any dots?”
“What’s happening to me?”
“Oh god stop stop stop!”
Brakes made a squeaking sound as I quickly stopped my speeding cycle. I tried to regain the control over my chaotic thoughts. My heart throbbed and breaths got heavier. I found myself standing in the middle of the road, as I regained my senses, cars honking behind me.
‘Sorry, I’m moving’, I said looking at the car behind me and peddled the bicycle to the side of the road.
My every effort to calm down was a false play for my mind. Every person’s eyes felt like a camera that kept track of my every move. And in those thousand eyes, those two scared me the most. I had a strong intuition that he was stalking me at this very moment. Following my track, observing my movements and finally waiting for the right moment to attack me. What was his purpose and what had I done to him, I had no clue.
I was just about to head back when suddenly a red sports car stopped by my side. I noticed something that made the earth underneath my feet slip away. I saw him. Although the image was not clear in the side mirror of that red sports car, I couldn’t be more right; it was him. That same hooded figure. He had used a handkerchief, with a skull printed on it, to cover his face. I pulled out hurriedly from there and paced with full strength. My apartment was just six blocks away, but it felt like miles. Suddenly I realized that I had keys to Jonah’s apartment that was just two blocks away, and I rushed.
I hurriedly took out the keys from my backpack and tried to unlock the door as I reached there. My hands shook so bad that I was not able to put the key into the hole in first few attempts. Somehow the door was unlocked. I got inside and ran to shut every window and cover them with curtains. Breathing heavily, I hid under the table. I shut my eyes and prayed for my safety.s
Slowly I felt relaxed as the time passed by. It was half an hour since then and there was no sign of anyone coming. He must have lost track of me. The assurance that I was safe encouraged me to get out from under the table. I was just about to get out when I heard the creaking voice of the door. He was here. I pushed myself back under the table and tried not to panic. Eyes widened. Sweat covered my entire face. And hands pressed hard on my mouth. The creaking sound stopped. And a tall black hooded figure stood in the doorway. He appeared very calm; there was no urgency in his body language.
I observed him carefully as he walked to the door. I knew that time was running out but suppressed the urge to check my watch. I took a deep breath and started counting in reverse under my breath. “Ten, nine, eight, seven…”
Four days earlier
‘What is it, doctor? You look dazed! Please tell me everything’s fine’, Amanda’s father asked concerningly.
‘I don’t know what to say! Her reports are unusual! I, too, am confused about her condition’, said the doctor in a tensed voice.
‘What do you mean by unusual?’
‘The reports of earlier tests clearly said that Amanda was under depression! But now she is showing symptoms of Schizoaffective disorder’, said the doctor.
‘What?….but doctor..’
‘It’s not the whole story! What’s more disturbing is that because of these hallucinations we all are under her radar of suspicion.’
‘I didn’t get that’, said her father.
‘Now she claims that someone with a hooded and masked face is following her. That, this so-called hooded man is keeping track of her every move. He even knows when she enters her room and when she gets out of the house. I think these are clearly the hallucinations. To add to all that, observing for past two days I have come to the conclusion that she feels every other person around her to be that hooded figure who has become her nightmare even in the bright daylight’, explained the doctor calmly.
‘Jesus! That’s..that’s.. terrifying!’, said the father as his face got pale after listening to the actual situation.
‘Let’s not lose hope. After police complaint and investigation, there was no evidence that she were followed. But Amanda still is very much confident that she actually is been followed. So I’ve decided to wait for few more days and observe’, said the doctor reassuringly.
Two days after the tests…
I could hear my father’s fingers clacking on the keyboard. Robert, my younger brother, was sitting on the couch across me reading some kind of magazine. My father noticed me after few minutes.
‘Amy, are you alright? ’, he asked.
No response.
‘Amy? Are you listening? ’, he asked again.
No response. I just stared down at the floor, drowned in my own thoughts.
‘Amy! Look at me. What’s going on your mind? Amy! ’, he said in a higher tone.
I looked up; slowly. He had put on black shoes with lace neatly tied, a dark grey colored trouser and an orange colored polo tee. I felt the beats in my heart increasing, for no reason. I gaped at him as my eyes met his.
‘Jesus Christ ’, I whispered under my breath.
‘It can’t be! He is my father!… But… those eyes…Same! ’, I kept staring at his eyes, scared and thinking about how terrifying it would be if the hooded man was my father.
‘I don’t like to see you all depressed Amy. There’s nothing to be afraid of! Police has also confirmed it. You don’t need to worry till I’m around you! Why don’t you go out and meet Craig. It’s been days since you’ve spoken with him and haven’t answered his calls. You’ll feel better’, he said.
What does he mean?
‘Don’t worry till I’m around? And when he’s not around.. what then..? Does he mean to say I should be worried when he’s not around? Is he warning me?’
Thoughts kept hammering. My mind had built the empire of negative thoughts. I didn’t want to accept them, still I somehow kept on following them.
‘But why would he want to kill me? Even when I was his stepdaughter, he loved me like a real one!’, I was confused.
The last day…
I just got to the dining table for breakfast. My face dull and hairs all messed. Although I tried my best to hide my tensed expressions, Robert noticed them. He quickly got up and came towards me.
‘Howdie Sister! ’, he said and tapped on my shoulders.
I just nodded and faked a smile. Robert, my stepbrother, was a very kind person. He knew whenever I was sad and he always made successful efforts to cheer me up again.
‘Come let’s go to your room’, he said and got me upstairs.
The conversation was one sided for the next hour. He was telling all about his school and video games. I just kept my eyes steadily staring at the floor.
‘I’m sorry Robbie… ’, I whispered.
He fell silent. And looked at me; bewildered.
‘What for? ’, he asked.
‘For Bella. I know how important that kitten was to you. I just wanted to pull a prank Robbie. I didn’t know putting her in the drawer could prove so fatal. You lost her because of me. I’m sorry.. Really…sor ’, I started sobbing.
‘Sorries are just like an ointment, they just decrease the pain but don’t heal the wounds’, he said in a deep voice.
‘Stop over thinking. And don’t cry, get ready. You are going to meet Craig in an hour. You don’t want to show up with a crying face, do you? And please don’t keep him waiting as you do to me!’, he chuckled and left the room.
Craig and I were supposed to meet at the coffee shop. We were in relation from six months now. But his behavior had changed lately. Once so caring and respecting Craig now got irritated by silly reasons by me. Even the thought that he perhaps might be cheating on me used to cross my mind quite often.
Coffee shop was eight blocks away from my apartment. People were heading back from work. Streets were crowded. I felt insecure. I knew he was following me. They said that I have some disorder, but they don’t know the reality; not even the half of it. I had read somewhere that you should not look back when you are scared but I did and my intuition proved right. I saw the hooded man while taking a sharp turn. I felt like fainting but I rushed as fast as I could. I took the cover behind a mob and cautiously took the alternate route and reached the shop. Craig wasn’t there! I took a seat somewhere in corner where no one could see me. I simmered myself down. I was surprised when I checked my watch. I too was half an hour late. But Craig, who was so punctual about timing, wasn’t there yet!
‘Why isn’t he here yet! Does he not care about me? My condition! Or is he already given up on me! ’, more negative thoughts pierced like an injection inside my brain.
Craig arrived hurriedly after ten more minutes.
‘I’m sorry dear. I was stuck in traffic. So..so sorry to keep you waiting’, he said as he was gasping control over his breath.
He was dressed unorderly, hairs untidy. It appeared like he ran all the way here.
‘So how are you doing? You look tense! What is it? ’, he asked.
‘No I’m fine. Just a bit tired’, I replied trying to control my inner thoughts.
After talking about half an hour suddenly an idea popped up into my mind. I decided to check if what I thought earlier was actually happening.
‘You’ve been busy these days! No time for me! What’s going on? ’, I taunted.
‘Busy? Me? Are you serious Amy? ’ , he said surprisingly.
I just kept staring at him and his expressions. He had never reacted the way he did at that time. I thought I had hit him in the perfect spot. I added something more.
‘Craig, who’s she? ’, I asked in a low voice.
I could see his eyes widened with surprise looking at me like I’ve accused him of murder.
‘Are you insane? You doubting me? Look, you’re clearly not in a good mental condition, so don’t say whatever comes to your mind’, he shouted as he sprung up from his chair angrily.
‘What-the-hell ’, I whispered.
I couldn’t believe what I saw, for a second I felt like standing in front of my death. I saw the same skull printed handkerchief half hanging in Craig’s right pocket as he sprung up in anger. My eyes fixed at it. It was hard to believe that a person with such secret identity could be so careless. But now everything started to unwind. It made perfect sense why he wanted to get rid of me.
Without a minute of hesitation I sprung up and made my way out.
‘Where do you think you’re going? I’m talking to you. Come back. Amy. You bitch how dare you keep me hanging like that’, he shouted and tried to pull my hand that I resisted and ran from there.
I took my bicycle and rode quickly. Tears rolled down the cheeks and fear started filling up the space.
I had crossed just two blocks when I noticed him, in the side mirror of a red sports car, following me. Again. My body started shaking and I felt cold sweated. I paced up. Regardless of the traffic and people walking by I just kept peddling with my full capacity.
‘Craig why are you doing this to me! ’, I whispered.
Out of the blue I realized that Jonah’s apartment was just two blocks away. I rushed there. Leaving the bicycle I ran upstairs. I wanted to scream, to let the fear inside me go out. But I had no time for that and that would just jeopardize my safety. Somehow I managed to open the door, got in and quickly hid beneath a table.
But then a creaking sound appeared. He was there standing in the door. I could see just a black tall figure. He started walking slowly inside, his shoes tapping on the floor. I tried hard not to scream. I checked my watch and started counting in reverse. The distance between him and me decreased as the countdown began.
My body shivered and I sweated profusely. Hands pressed hard on my mouth I tried hard not to scream and cry. My red eyes filled with tears.
Every second of the countdown was my journey towards the last breath.
‘Six, Five, Four, three, two…’
He was now standing right in front of me. My eyes widened and unblinked, I just held my breath. He kneeled down to get closer to me.
‘One…’
Just couple meters away he dead looked into my eyes. I was helpless. The moment had come. Those who said I had some disorder would know I was right; but it would be too late then. There was a pin drop silence. I could hear his breathe. He stared continuously and then leaned forward, the distance decreased from meters to centimeters. He was so close that I could see deep into his big angry eyes. I took a long breath. Body tremoured, fear was at its peak.
Then a voice appeared,
‘Howdie sister!’
The world around me started spinning. I thought I must have heard something wrong but unfortunately I had heard it right. All the way till now I thought it was Craig. Life had played the dirtiest trick with me. I couldn’t believe Robert was the face behind that mask.
‘I loved her dammit. More-than-my-own-life. And just for the sake of a prank you murdered her you bitch!’, he screamed at me.
‘Robbie..Robbie I’m I’m sorr..sorr’ , I tried to apologize.
My words broke as I felt a metal piercing into my stomach; slowly. I took a deep breath and held it there. I felt my voice blocked.
‘Say goodbye to your miserable life’
Those words proved to be the last ones I heard. My eyes closed slowly, everything went from clear to blur. Those last tears fell down quickly as my life slipped away from my hands. I shut my eyes. All I could see now was a total infinite darkness!
– Written by Harshal Pawar