I can feel it. That itching inside my mind. It won’t go if I scratch it. It isn’t that kind of scratching. It’s the thoughts that are crashing against each other and giving birth to anxiety and negativity. Feels like I’m rotting from within. No matter how much you try to be happy, no matter how much you pretend, it doesn’t help. When nothing works out everything seems to be closing in on you.
Don’t know if it’s the divine intervention of the bad kind or just a bad coincidence but all the problems seem to be attacking you right at the same time. Are they always there? Hiding in some dark corners, staring at us, keeping watch at us, waiting for us to fuck up and then, one day, suddenly you are in this state of dread on which they feed, and they smell your negative aura and, one by one, they start creeping out to attack you. When one enters it opens the door to others as well.
What can you do? You aren’t even conscious about them entering into your life. You are busy fighting the other thoughts so much, you are dug deep into such negative thoughts for so long and fully concentrated towards them that you just create even denser negative aura around you which attracts more and more problems. It becomes too much to handle, you have been going through a lot already and more things stop going your way.
It is the irritation that comes with it which is harmful for one’s own self and the people around. The frustration born out of thousand chaotic things, disturbed mind, tired eyes, and heavy breaths.
Your mind is caught between these thousand thoughts so brutally that when it tries and succeeds to come out of that web it only gets a fraction of second to think – Why can’t things start falling into place?
Fin.
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